It's been a month already since Michael Jackson has left to please the angels, to sing on a better stage but with all that how come I don't feel happy, they said we should feel joy but death implies so many feelings...how can we go on feeling happy,knowing that a person we cared of isn't around anymore and time heals, indeed but yet sometimes it might just heal too much, one might forget the face, the voice, some of the memories might be kept in a small corner...it's hard to imagine life without a person that once meant something for you, it's hard to imagine life without a person that still means something for you but we still carry on, show must go on and even if we keep a memory in a little corner it's better than nothing.
It's so hard to speak about this pain even right now, after more than a month, it's so hard even to think about it...you get in your mind like a broken disk the same old question "why?"....you're born in this world and grow asking "why" and you go on till the end of life!Because of "why" so many things have appeared, including gossiping, "why are his kids so white", "why is he white", "why, why,why"...but what harm did he do to many of us for us to judge him, what did anyone do for us to judge them, have we the right to do so, can we say that we're perfect when no one really is...but this is human nature, why to question myself about it when most of us already know it!
Right now I feel that I must write, that I must write everything and anything but there is something stopping me, this strange sensation in my heart, I have all this mixture of feelings in my heart and all this mixture of thoughts in my mind...so I'll wait, leave the time be my guide, leave the music of Michael to inspire me...to change the "man in the mirror"!